Thursday, September 27, 2018

First one

he was a boy and led me on
he was he and I was me
and she Bridgitte

I cursed, I sulked, deserved all I got
I wallowed, retracted, and huddled
temptized, hypnotized
captivated by I don't know what

is this love?
candy hearts bubbling in my gut

I want to be 
what I cannot
cannot be
for he was he and ayme

So in my room,
alone
willing and ready

waking inconsistently as they pass
emergin' and thinking

restless in my socks, my skin
the spaces in my teeth
your donation to my charity all I need

weeks and days and months and centuries
of clouds slowly gawking
hell freezing, the devil entering each child sneezing
not blessed and I yell 
fucking mountains
until click clank,
baby, I'm hurt bad

but now you're here
and I've ended up here
in your room
with you 
alone

the black mold that has infested your home

I take you out to the woods
and you smile and it's beautiful
your heartbeat beats for me

and I now lay my palms into your cold hands
your neck is still
this dream I had is no longer could be
it is and I am here with you
just you and me

my blood rushing

it pouring like I've never seen before
the happy ending has arrived
and we have survived to greet it

I look into your cold dead opulent eyes

he takes the first swing 
the earth quakes and the sea aches
the clouds turn away

I have split in two, with you
and down comes the ax a second turn
I'm hurtin' now
our bodies entangled 
my breath receding
third ax into my head
and I'm dead

our twisted limbs entangled

2 boys butchered by unknown
and the fire is our heavenly escape

together in fire, no longer layered,
they throw our ashes over the lake

Sunday, September 23, 2018

stomach _foot

my slug brain like
wetness and salt
And Lick it up
like velcro

Friday, September 21, 2018

Glory hole

Where I feel this huge monster
Of a thing go down and
Enter into my throat
Where I press my hole to a hole
Like two empties pressing to kiss
One full of cum and the other of lust
Oh how I want this- to not care
To be all wrapped up in one, at a
Gas station
Trying to get some relief,
Fuel up
And the reality comes in,
Just like the screech of that door
and we pull away
Not before you Cum
And it's like
Anyway
I'm here
I'm already here
So I just stay here and
Soak

Friday, September 14, 2018

my ass numbs itself for you



My ass
Numbs itself for you.
Are you hard
for me?

Bear

Like a bear,
I see him as the sunlight
Dances and glistens off his
Hair
And autumn leaves

In his hand is
A bulge, big as a
Fish,
Leaning against a
Tree.

I take it in my mouth
Like a bear
Gnawing on it
When he puts

His claws on my head
The other hand holding
His breast
breath ‘coming
Full, as he roars

He says, you like that boy?
Take it, boy.
That is exactly what
I want.

His body is so big and plushy
Unlike mine
And I imagine if
I put my fingers
On it, it would press in
and move back to form
Like silly putty

Yet it is strong and
Full of muscle

(He holds me Tight in

The wilderness)

I imagine it breaking and cracking
As I hold and grab on
Too tight

He likes to push me around and control me
Making my movements for me
Putting back my shoes

Spitting in his hand as lube
Aw fuck
He says

The sun sets
I don't know how to handle this part,
When the two of us part,
I feel like a bear, too
The fur on my brows bristled
I want him to leave, but also expect this to be my eternity
Fuuuuuckk yeah, he says
And cums

Monday, September 10, 2018

A dense ball

Of bubblegum
in the bus
That time you pulled up my pants
Today my relationship with men
My relationship with love
Like a brain opening, revealing a knife,
Piercing your heart.
My emotions seep through like wetness
And are damp and cold.
The shock for criticism
I’m ready for once more
For people to call me gross and
Run away when running along their fingertips
And yet I’m better than you Big Red
because I once was fruity
One time, I was cute.
And now I’m awash, grey, hard
And ugly
I’m angry, in fact,
Put me in your mouth and
Feel the hard piece of bubblegum
I don’t want to talk and
I don’t want to see
I want to be over you,
I want you to never forget;
My eyes like bite marks

The handshake 2